{COLOURS OF MY LIFE}

CheckMate

Saturday, December 31, 2005

You need to stop playing round with all them clowns and the wangstas
Good girls gotta get down with them gangstas
Go head girl put some back and some neck up on it
While I stand up in the background and check up on it

Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it, I'm gone let you work up on it
Ladies let em check up on it, watch it while he check up on it
Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight

If you got flaunt it, boy I know you want it
While I turn around you watch me check up on it
Oohhh you watchin me shake it, I see it in ya face
Ya can't take it, it's blazin, you rock me it amaze me
You can look at it, as long as you don't grab it
If you don't go braggin, I'ma let you have it
You think that I'm teasin, but I ain't got no reason
I'm sure that I can please ya, but first I gotta read you

Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it, I'm gone let you work up on it
Ladies let em check up on it, watch it while he check up on it
Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight

I can tell you wanna taste it, but I'm gone make you chase it
You got to be patient, I like my men patient
More patience, you take my get you in more places
You can't be abrasive, has to know to pace it
If I let you get up on it, you gotta make a promise
That you gone put it on me, like no ones put it on me
Don't bore me, just show me, all men talk but don't please
I can be a tease, but I really wanna please you

Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it, I'm gone let you work up on it
Ladies let em check up on it, watch it while he check up on it
Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight

I'm checking on you boo, do what chu do
And while dance I'ma glance at this beautiful view
I'm keep my hands in my pants, I need to glue em w/ glue
I'm in a trance all eyes on you and your crew
Me and my mans don't dance, but to feel ya'll bump and grind
If won't hurt if you gone try one time
They all hot, but let me see this ones mine
Its slim thug and DC outta H town

Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it, I'm gone let you work up on it
Ladies let em check up on it, watch it while he check up on it
Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight

colours fill my life with wonders Love

C00L

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Listening to : Bye Bye Bye (N'Sync)
Weather : C00ling
Feeling : Deeply for BEAU
Wanting : Meet BEAU of coz

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

Yeah, I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

C-cool, I know we're cool
I know we're cool

colours fill my life with wonders Love

BeBek I LOve You

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Boy I never knew I could feel
The way I felt, when I felt the way
you were feeling me baby
I'm so out of control yeah...

Everytime you look my way
I realize more and more
How much I adore those pretty eyes
Of yours, I'm helpless baby

What I wanna know is
Are you willing to try
Can you love me for a lifetime
In just one night
Ohh...

Baby I love you (love you)
Baby I need you (need you)
I gotta have you (I gotta have you babe)
Can't be without you (be without you)

Baby I love you (yeah...)
Baby I need you (need You...)
I gotta have you (I gotta have you babe)
Can't be without you

Blessed and cursed on the same day,
The day that I first felt the power of you
Inside of me, such a strong feeling
There comes a time in everyone's life
When you know, and everyone around you knows
That everything is changed,
You're not the same, it's a new day

Oh... what I wanna know is,
Are you willing to try
There's got to be more meaning to this
Than what meets the eye...

Baby I love you
Baby I need you (baby I need you)
Gotta have you baby (I gotta have you)
Can't be without you (can't be without you)

Baby I love you (baby I love you)
Yea yeah... (baby I need you)
I gotta have you (I gotta have you)
Yea, yea yeah... (can't be without you)

Ooh... I love the way you kiss me
Oh, baby please
I'm about to loose my mind
Oh... talk to me, cause I'm beggin' for you and,
I'm down on my knees...
Baby I know you're the one that I need...

(Baby I love you...)
(You know I need you...)
(Gotta have you...)
(Can't be without you...)

(Baby I love you...)
(You know I need you...)
(Gotta have you...)
(Cant be without you..)

Ladies do you know what I'm talkin' about
When a man gets inside your soul,
And it takes hold, and it won't let go
Hey.. hey... hey....

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Merry Merry

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Listening to : If (Janet Jackson)
Weather : Cooling
Feeling : Surprised
Wanting : MY BEAU

MERRY XMAS people!! Have a great long holidays and weekend of course.

Wanna wish to few people..

SELAMAT BERTUNANG SABRINA & SULAYMAN..mua schoolmates from secondary..who is also my best fren's, Ana, sis..see you later. Sorry ANA that I can't help you out much as what I promised. Unforseen circumstances.

'UV' - good luck for the comp @ Tampines Mall later. Hope we achieve!! Come & support my crew. From 3pm onwards in conjunction of RIA'S 15TH ANNIVERSARY.

Gtg

Wanna catch few winks@@

colours fill my life with wonders Love

How Do I REALLY feel?

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Listening to : Don't Lie(Black Eyed Peas)
Feeling : Leftout
Wanting : Be Loved
Im reading : Silent Wing (Jose Raul Bernardo)

Rebellious. Stubborn. Happy Go Lucky. Ain't Fussy. Frustrated. Sad. Disappointed. Crying. Loves the KIDS.

Where did I go wrong?

Am I such a failure?

Am I?

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

colours fill my life with wonders Love

How Love Changes Us All

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Listening to : Get Out (Jojo)
Weather : Warm
Feeling : So In Love
Wanting : Kiss HIM..

BEAU still at work. Waiting up for him. Penyu sending him home. Earlier he had his 2/3 course. Last one tomorrow.

These days im feeling sooooooooo deeply for him. Ups & dwns with him. Learning abt him more & more every now & then. hehe..juz got an sms..HE'S HOME...hw much i miss him each day. Can't describe the feeling. Waiting up for his call then...

Sch galore..counting the days till hols. ISA GONNA HV A PARTY THIS THURS!! CAN'T WAIT..thks to MRS QUEK, OUR EVM LECTURER..She gave us $50 to spent..Khai & mua I/C of this..food & food galore..yum2

Oh ya..HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMIR..MANA KAU MENHILANG LAH??

Tak lupa juga kepada BEBEK...LOVE YOU

colours fill my life with wonders Love

True LOvers

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

HAPPY 7TH MTH ANNIVERSARY BEBEK!!

How time flies!! Still recall the first time I set eyes on ya. Who's that cute guy with e cap?? Sighz..droolz..hehe..

Our first date..cute as ever..

Our first holding hands..so e auto

Our first kiss..can't describe e feeling

I wouldn't want to trade you with anyone else if I have a choice...

I'll be by ur side alwayz..

I love you, BebeK!!

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Yikes

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Listening to : It's All About Us (Tatu)
Feeling : Under e weather
Wanting : My Beau..sob2

e world is too small. everyone knows each other. e connectn is either near of far.

ik houd van u mijn baby

colours fill my life with wonders Love

LOve

Monday, December 12, 2005

Saying I love you isnt ez
Telling someone that i love you aint ez
to me...i meant it whenever i say

juz tell if you dont like my ways
juz show me if u dont like it
tegur me if u want it your way

im your shadow when im not by your side
im your eyes when you can't see
im your ears when you can't hear
im your lips when you can't speak

IM YOUR SHOULDER WHEN YOU NEED TO CRY ON..

colours fill my life with wonders Love

A cool morn

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Listenin 2 : Im sprung (T-pain)
Weather : Cool
Feeling : Strong
Wanting : Can I take his pain away??

Gd morn everyone. Hope everyone hv a great sun ahead. Felt diff today. I myself dont noe y. Did a lot of thinking since yesterday. Was putting myself in their shoes. Im crying in my heart. This can't b happening. Y now?? Can I take his pain away & everything would go back to norm? I wanna them hv the family bonding back. Ya Allah..aku bermohon kdpmu.

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Here 4 ya

Listenin 2 : Naughty Girl (Beyonce)
Weather : Cool
Feeling : Daze
Wanting : Kuatkan semangatnya..

What a day!! I don't regret any of it tho.

Yesterday, wokeup at 1030hrs. Decided to go Kecik's sis engagemt. Nurul R eventually wanna come with us but..she was hospitalised upon calling her. I was shocked..she's in TTSH now. Maybe a possibility that she's gonna discharged today.

Visited 'Dad'. Had an operation last Friday. He was doing ok. Still recovering. Semoga ALLAH kuatkan semangatmu.

BEAU..I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE 4 YA..ALL THE TIME..ALL THE WAY..TODAY, TOMMORROW & FOREVER..

LOVE U BEBEK!! MUACKZ..

WE WILL WALK THIS JOURNEY TOGETHER..

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Thank you guyz

Friday, December 09, 2005

Listening to : Bring Me To Life (Evanesence)
Weather : Cloudy
Feeling : Anxious
Wanting : Dance all night long

Burpz..just had 2 slices of leftover pizza. Courtesy of BEAU's. My birthday pizza in fact. SW was draggy, practically we had to run our 2.4km despite it drizzles when we gonna start. Yet, it still goes on. I was up for my 2nd round..sharks..we were called back. raining heavily. Hmm..buat penat but overall i did enjoyed it. Lunch time was the best. I was surpised by a birthday cake by my chixz. Extremely nice. Coffee Cream Cake. Didn't taste like coffee. Thks again. Love you guyz!!

Went to Toa Payoh Library. Nowadays, im a comic freak. Giler2..Apo..mua favaratos..Once I have them, my novels were put aside. *Grinz.

Suweet was gonna join me tonite but too bad, she's sick. Get well soon gal.. We shall chill next time aite!!

Can't wait for tonight. Pity BEAU had to rush home after work. Then out again to TTSH. He's gonna stay there till night before meeting me & the others. Muackz!!! C ya tonite BABY..Love ya..

Am i being deserted? I felt so. It's simple. Just tell me if Im involved or not. Rather than Im being clueless. Sighz..

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Gembira...

Listening to : Asmara Ini (Fazly)
Weather : Sejukz
Feeling : Over The Top
Wanting : Other PrezzieS? Hehe

Wanna wish my adik Sikin..HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY..FINALLY...DAH LEGAL..HEHEHE..HOPE UR WISHES COMES TRUE..SEMOGA ALLAH PANJANGKAN UMURMU...

Enjoyed myself yesterday. Wishes galore from classmates, schmates & hp wishes..thank u once again guyz!!

Sch was ok...Role Play Rehearsal extended to Monday. No Event Management test. Selamatz. Mrs Quek not in 2day. Get to report upon SW. Two lessons later..yipee!!
Met BEAU at City Hall 1800hrs. Both arrived at the same time. Thought of queing for free Starbucks at Raffles City outlet..but..queue punya panjang..BEAU can't bother to wait..we both kinda hungry. Decided to hv quick dinners & watch 'Chicken Lil'. We watch it @ Suntec Eng Wah. 1945 show. Before that, we fill our grumblin tummies with Carl's Junior..yummy...mouthwatering..slurpz..u guys shd try..Show was awesome...despite BEAU did doze off for a while @ e end bit of e movie. Cian dier..penatz..hugz...Best part was to hv dessert at Ben&Jerry. Sinful guyz..We ordered Mix & Match. Chose Phish Flavour, NY Crunch & BEAU's Crunchy Monkey.

Fuuny event happened on the way home..Kallang busstop..few guyz or shall i say BOYZ..kacau me..then..e old trick-his frens pushed this guy 2wards me n say KAWAN SAYA NAK KENAL2 AH..then i SAID..SORRY?? He said OH BUKAN MELAYU EH?? THEN CABUT..HAHAHA..apa aje bdk2 ni..tak ader keje ke???

Thk you for spending time with me my BABY..dont worry..THIS CHRISTMAS, I DON'T WISH TO HAVE 2 BOYFRIENDS BUT MY ART-D
Love ya bebek!!

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Happy2 For Me

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Listenin to : Get Your Number (Mariah Carey)
Feeling : 25 yrs old
Wanting : entah..back to old times

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

Bersyukur kepada Allah kerana panjangkan umurku
Dapat lagi melihat dunia ini
Masih lagi dpt bersama keluargaku & my loved ones
Lastly having BEAU by me..

Thk u MAMA..for carrying me in ur tummy
Thk u MAMA..for being there 4 me
Thk u MAMA..for takin up my crap & being patient
Thk U MAMA....i love you

Thk u BEAU..for choosing me as ur GF..ur B..ur precious one
Thk u BEAU..for being with me then & now & hopefully forever
Thk u BEAU..for understanding me esp putting up with my stubornness
Thk u BEAU..im gonna cherish you..tt's for sure..love u Baby

Got a shock. BEAU called to wish Happy Birthday. Then, he told me to openup my door. Tot he was joking. When I did, a large pizza box & a medium pink box with red ribbons was at my doorstep. He eventually said DHL sent it. Hmm..i knew its him & of coz he hitched a ride fr some1 but doenst wanna tell. I was still on the phone with him when I opened the pink box. Boy...i was shocked..i cried tears of joy..inside it was a black Roxy wallet & a personalised white belt with my name of it..Bling2!! THK YOU BEAU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART...im so happy..

Thks to my ISA chickz 4 e wishes..lap u all

Gtg..wanna eat my birthday pizza!! Hehehe

Fin

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Last day being 24

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Listening to : So What (Yakul)
Feeling : Lame
Wanting : Can I Go Back & Be Sweet 17?
Im Reading : Apo (Issue 129)

Yummy!! Enjoying mum's cooking. Black Pepper gravy consists of minced meat, mushrooms & patatoes. Mcm beef steak. Guess Im hvin a 2nd round..Slurpz!! Any takers??? Rehearsal went well. Mrs Quek & Madam Noraini quite proud of us.

Sighz..last day being 24..reflecting on my life..i must say..not gd enough..not satisfied..more can b done...

Still hasn't decide on goin school tomorrow.

To WaWa ISA..tabahkanlah hatimu..semoga ur dad akan cepat sembuh..amin..
Haida..glad u r back!! Hope ur dad doing fine!!
For my 'Dad'..hope ur op tis Fri goes fine..Sally doakan!!

Fin

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Shake2

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Listenin 2 : Shake (Ying Yang Twins Feat Pitbull)
Weather : xtremely panas
Feeling : haiz..
Wanting : Thinkin wat 2 wear on fri

Was late for sch. Luckily had a briefing @ StudentHub on Xmas Volunteer. Final adjustments. Volunteer on 26th (Boxin Day) fr 12 noon-5pm. Ok2 ah. Doing security. Macm best gitu. Kecik & Sikin tak dtg sch. Ader org tu giler bayang ke..hehehe. Had a talk on 1st aid by e medic ppl fr CD. Was streched truout PR lesson. Best sekali. We eventually left at 5pm..for e 1st time for his damn lesson. Went tp lib after sch. Saw D. Tggu sapa aje dier..BEAU goin back late again. Miss you loads tau.

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Happy Family

Listening to : This i promise you (N'Sync)
Weather : Awesome
Feeling : So In Love
Wanting : Hugz my BEAU

Shall I countdown?? Not!!

Had a MARVELLOUS day yesterday. @ Sch & not 4getting TTSH!! Some1 wd agree with me on this..Kan2 adek..hehehe

Cracking jokes as usual upon lunch time. Fariha, Izzah & Nurul R didnt came. After PR lessons, did our 'quick' rehearsals @ class for the skit. Rehan, Hana, Sikin, Linda & myself rushed down to TTSH for volunteer. Obviously we were late. Upon arrival, 2 other students from Interact Club was there sitted. Saw a reception there. Hmm..get to eat?? Of coz..A quick one thou.

Before that, Rehan, Hana & myself visited 'Dad' at ward 10b. Everyone including Huda's family except BEAU (usual..working) & Kakak (had to go for an interview). Was accepted with open arms. Went up again bringing Sikin & Linda after e volunteer thingy. Had a great visit..

BEAU..I LOVE YOUR FAMILY BUT I LOVE U MORE!!

Kin..art-d cakap mesti kena joget!! Hehehe

colours fill my life with wonders Love

YummY

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Listening to : Ms Independent (Kelly Clarkson)
Feeling : Great
Wanting : Hmm..what ah??

Tom Yum was soooooooooooo fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Dad eventually send me to NTUC. Yipee..was so damn hot outside...Exercising juz now..shaking my ass off..haha..remembering my steps..wonder if Im in on e 11th show..sighz..just await then...Sch starts 8am 2morrow..arghhhhhh!! After sch, goin TTSH for volunteer. Gonna visit BEAU's dad too. A surprise visit actually while Im there. *grinz. Hopefully his op will go tru just fine. Doakkan utknya!! Amin..

Still feeling full..Tom Yum leftovers for dinner...

Gtg

Fin

BEAU...C ya on mua birthday!! My present apa ah????

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Tom Yum Gong2

Listenin 2 : U & Me (Lifehse)
Weather : warm
feeling : being a chef
wantin : cookup a storm

Ola pple!! How's ur Sat? Great I hope..

Was awaken by BEAU's msg. Few mins b4 6am. He just got back. Call him up & we talked for a while. Not sure if we r meetin on mua birthday or the next day.

When I wokeup earlier, something struck my mind. Thinking of cooking lunch. Menu of the day - Tom Yum . BEAU's favaratos. Getting the ingredients later @ NTUC after a trip to the library. Sending it to BEAU at his workplace. Boy..he's gonna love it.

Gtg.

Fin..

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Make Me Feel Good

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Is there any boys around
that know how to make a girl feel?
that wanna make a girl feel,
make her feel good?
All I wanna know
Is there any boys around
that know how to make a girl feel?
that wanna make a girl feel,
make her feel good?
I just wanna know

Do I have to tell him how to touch me?
Do I have to tell him how to hold me?
Do I have to tell him when to call me?
Do I have to tell him I'm lonely?
Do I have to feel wrong,
when it ain't strong?
keep my mouth closed?
(huh huh huh)
Can't a girl from tha hood find a homie,
that ain't just tryna hang around me?

Do I have to show him I'm a woman?
Do I have to apologize for my emotions?
Do I have to tell him what to say to me,
everytime he wanna get next to me?
Do I have to set a full cat black case?
Stroke cuz he go
(mmh girl no)
Can't a chick from tha hood find a homie,
that wanna do more than spend money on me?

How come I got him but can't trust him?
Why every answer to my question is a question?
Why can't my baby be my own lil somethin'?
and every girl on my block can't say they don' bumped wit?

I'm so tired of these so called wanna be hard cold pretenders that
(have no clue)
Can't a chick from tha hood find a homie,
that I ain't gotta tell how to put it on me?

why why is it so hard
hard for a girl like me to find a boy
that really knows how to make a girl feel (girl feel, feel)
why is it so hard
hard for a girl like me to find a boy
that really knows how to make a girl feel (girl feel, feel)
I just wanna know

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Stay

Listenin to : Dua Dunia (Too Phat Featuring Siti Nurhaliza)
Weather : warm
Feeling : sighz
Wanting : i guess i just go & nap

Staying home. Beau's not meeting.

Sighz!!

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Yipee

Listening to : U're beautiful (James Blunt)
Weather : Hot
Feeling : Tired
Wanting : When's BEAU calling?

Done what i wanna do. Hope BEAU like it.

BEAU still hasn't call. Sighz..

Still..........waiting............in..........agony!!

Fin

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Waiting In Agony

Listening to : More Than Words (Frankie J)
Weather : Sunshine Galore
Feeling : split personality
Wanting : out with BEAU..uwekk!!

Burpz!! Thk u Mama for cooking my favaratos!! Black pepper salmon with celery. Diet freak nowadays. Butt & thighs aching like hell. Thks to e xcercise tt I knew yesterday fr SW class. It tightens my butt & hv nice legs!! *winkz. Still waiting for BEAU's confirmation. Hv something in my mind. Decide to do it. Surprise, surprise..hehe

Gtg. Have a great weekend people with whoever..especially your loved ones.

Sapa2 yg gi 'Hanyut Concert' tu..kirim salam dgn Syed Azmir ya..heheh

Fin

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Congrats!!

Friday, December 02, 2005

Listenin 2 : Biology (Girls Aloud)
Weather : Windy
Feeling : Proud
Wanting : Hv tt team spirit..hehe

juz wanna say

CONGRATS UV FOR GETTING 'BEST COSTUME' AWARD

cONGRATS TO HELLNATION TOO FOR 'BEST SPIRITED' TEAM..spirit abis..hehe

After sch.went to catch my crew & Issac's @ HDB Hub big space. They joined Street Rock Comp. Kinda cool. Meet lots of pple in e dance world. Had fun cheering. Kinda bingit with e FUCKER US JUDGES. They refused to mark UV & HELLNATION'S routine coz we dont hv any cheer in it. So stupid..Overall, we kinda contented with the results. As long as we get somethin.

Got news on BEAU'S dad -he hv a growth in his brain..goin scan again 2morrow. Hope he's gonna b fine!!

Not sure if meeting BEAU..ain't putting high hopes

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Pollo Poco

Listenin 2 : Rolling (Limp Bizkit)
Feelin : HeartPain
Wanting : Shout2
Im Reading : APO #121

estoy lastimado

¿por qué usted no me dijo sobre él?

usted dijo que TODAVÍA vamos a ser frens CERCANOS pero conjeturo NO.

¡cLe ODIO!! VACIE LAS PROMESAS SOLAMENTE

PUEDE USTED SER FELIZ CON ELLA

adiós mi favaratos Pollo Poco

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Get Well Soon Dad!!

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Listening to : Because of You (Kelly Clarkson)
Weather : Normal
Feeling : Sad
Wanting : Dad to get well soon

Got news fr BEAU. His dad was admitted to CGH at noon time. He is suspected of stroke and going for a brain scan tommorrow. Sally doakan semoga sembuh secepat mungkin iya!! Be strong!! If his dad still admitted, Im gonna feel kinda bad on BEAU meeting me this Sat. Nevertheless, BEAU hv told kak.

BEAU..Le amaré siempre no importa qué sucede

colours fill my life with wonders Love

Happy2

Juz wanna wish e abv pple.

E sistas of Ubi..hehe..HAPI ANNIVERSARY TO IZZAH & FIQ..& IFFAH & MIZI..SEMOGA BERKEKALAN..AMIN!!

New mth.

My fav mth!!

End of the yr soon.

Gdbye 2005..Ola 2006!!

colours fill my life with wonders Love